Fickle

Sometimes I think i'm too selfish because I want people to behave in a way that would suit me or I perceive would make me feel better. If he does something that feels good like if he notices me or does something that I find sweet I sometimes wish he did not do it because it makes me like him more but when people starts acting the way I want them to sometimes I get hurt then I tell myself 'this is what you want,right?' Ang gulo. Basta. I want him around but when he's near it feels awkward. And I have this peculiar fetish of enjoying hearing his voice from afar...