while waiting for it to load i tell myself "get ready to get hurt."

bakit??

he's unusually hyper a while back, unusually flirty, ewan. hay i just like him too much.

Movies

Rio.awake.no strings attached.riot.indecent proposal.

Movies

Awake.no strings attached.riot.rio.indecent proposal.

turned down again my ass

'i've been turned down again'. Hindi mu lang alam pero iniisip ku un sinabi mu hanggang pag-uwi ko. Di ku tuluy alam if i did the right thing. I would have wanted to hug you but i guess i want to deprive myself of what i want because i don't want to love you more than i already do and i just don't feel it's right. for you it's just a simple hug but for me it's more than that so i feel guilty. Anu bang iniisip mo? Pabor kaya sa kin un. Kung alam mu lang kung ganu kita kagusto. Nakakatawa pero it's what everyone says 'i like you too much it hurts'. Gustu kung umiyak ng umiyak para lang mabawasan ang bigat ng nararandaman ko pero ayaw lumabas eh. Ang sakit sakit. Taz gustu ku rin sanang pumunta sa championship nyo kasu wala akong kasama. Sa monday di ko talaga alam kung anung gagawin ko. Imbes na kakalimutan na sana kita tapus you'll act as if i'm special to you kaya gustung gustu na naman kita. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Ayaw kong masaktan ka pero un ba ang ginagawa ko?

Back to School Theme

I acted very stupidly today. Think i would be needing more of these so i can finally forget him. It's so embarassing i don't want to even think about it anymore.

Pay day

I was reading a post in fb a while back about someone who's with his mom, his bro and gf and i realized i've gotten over him, there's really nothing you can't forget i guess, if you have every reason to. For the present one, have missed him for a day,he was on leave. I was fighting the urge to catch attention, so just sat in front of my computer and kept it low. I'm not in the mood to be rowdy either anyway. I guess what i like about myself is i could easily recover if i know that you don't really care for me as i believe you to. I easily fall for people who i think treats me special but if i eventually realize it's really not what i think it is then letting go is a breeze. Guess i need to be on a lookout to that something that would wake me up from the current spell i'm under. Been hearing things but still need a greater push that will get me back to my senses.someday..